It’s almost spring, but it’s still winter.. so there’s that. Fall came and went like the beautiful colors of the orange and yellow maple trees that sprang up in every corner of the Portland world, only to wilt away with winter’s start. The seasons here are incredibly beautiful and filled with all kinds of meaning that bring about the deepest of feels. Since my last post I got a new job, fell in love, and let go of some things that no longer served me. Winter has been a whirlwind of fun. I went to Hawaii with my family and new beau, celebrated the seasons festivities with multiple different friends in varying settings, took dance lessons, yoga classes, tried Barre 3 out (which I have to say is not really my jam), and cooked so many amazing new recipes. Lastly, I started an online program at the Institute for Integrative nutrition in the hopes of becoming somewhat of a health coach and I want to tell you all about it!
I have learned some really wonderful principals that have had somewhat of a healing effect on my body and mental psyche. The most important principal is the fact that diets don’t work. I have been on so many different diets and I just love how this school is so woke to the concept that the diet industry is genuinely fake. Don’t get me wrong here, there are some amazing elements to eating in a specific way, but truly no one way of eating works for everyone all the time for most people I know. As someone who has aspired to be vegan and gluten-free 100% of the time but failed multiple times this statement totally freed me of the guilt I would feel while “cheating” and eating something that wouldn’t fit into either of those categories. I still believe that a vegan, anti-processed, anti-inflammatory and gluten free diet is the healthiest way to go but if sometimes I want to be wild and eat cheese or gluten for funs sake since I’m not completely intolerant, then there’s no harm done. I was pretty strict for a few years and it was really hard to socialize, to eat with my family who’s not vegan and just live in the world with all of it’s delicious temptations. People change and what we crave and need as we get older, move to new climates, start new exercise routines, changes us and there’s nothing wrong with that. I know I will always remain vegetarian because I have found that I never really enjoy eating meat, sometimes fish, but mostly I don’t struggle with abstaining from meat. The one thing I have had a hard time letting go is dairy. I grew up loving cheese and sometimes my soul just craves a little so I let myself eat some every now and then. It’s too stressful for me to constantly say no to things that I actually really love and enjoy, and if the cheese or ice cream comes from a place where the animals are treated well, then I feel okay indulging every now and then. It’s the only way I can eat vegan most of the time anyway.
In my case, if I want to be vegan for a week and vegetarian on the weekend and let myself eat ice cream off the spoon of my lovers hand on a Friday night I will no longer feel guilty. I need to be free from that because life is too damn short and the world and it’s problems are way bigger than me and my perfectionism. The stress of that guilt will silently kill me faster than knowing that I’m not a perfect will.
Have any thoughts on being 90% strict and 10% fun? I’d love to hear your feedback!
I’m making a vegan and gluten free carrot cake muffin bunch tonight with a recipe I tweaked a bit to make my own. I will keep ya’ll posted!
For now, here are some more pics from this winter